It’s funny to think about that because maybe I’m writing about a dilemma even I’m playing with a double-edged sword (I hope can handle it in a smooth way). But since we have a grade between us and our success, sometimes we fell in the game (yes! Don’t deny it, we are all sinners) entering ourselves into a pathetic role playing as bootlickers or little toadies (I’m not judging anyone) standing boring, tedious activities that seem to be everlasting in order to give a good perception to your “viewers”: “Oh, that’s a hard-worker guy/girl attending all the activities and doing very good interventions” however, there’s a common goal in all that superficial stuff: fighting for a good grade…
Beyond the meaningful objectives and all the interest we have in every reading, discussion, whatever! (Really believe it) It remains a dark side on the table: a little voice far away saying: “oh god! When are we going to finish this, have we taken all the time to do THIS? Maybe this time would be more pleasant and better used if I do other assignments” But no! Keep going, don’t cancel it, don’t cancel it!
Language is something that grows in society and needs practice every time, but attention and a good environment where people could feel the tentative to take part in that is also relevant. A good reading is good because it is! (Think about it) a bad selection of activities around it can turn it into something boring and a lack of initiative, on the other hand I don’t see the aim if you come and sit down feeling left out, be confident! No matter if you open your mouth to say “des conneries” just to get the attention of the professor and thinking that as a better grade in your 30 % of “trabajo continuo”, pffff (yes I said it!)
Grade, grade, grade… A good grade makes us good learners or disciplined people doing what they have to…???
(The thoughts in here don't represent the thinking of the author)
Obviously I will be waiting for my 5.0...
eehhh just kidding, Ironic subject for Ironic people.
Really, is this for real???? jeje. I couldn't belive your words, but "sadly" it could be true. No matter what we do - every time, every where- we are always waiting for some kind of "approbation", no matter if it is a grade, a hand shake, or just a word of "good work"; but it is because we were taught to expect that... I remember my dad's voice "you can do better than your brother, if he could made it good, you could made it excelent"... so did my best and I did it "excelent", but always looking for some "nice" word from my dad and family, however it was never enough for them, so I realized that I should made it as good as I could, there's nothing to prove to anyone but yourself.
ReplyDeleteSo, a "grade" can shape? yeah, of course. But it can shape me as far as I want.
Well, it's all true, although when I had this English VI course I did work and read and write because I really liked it. Actually, it's been one of the very few courses I've really liked and I've really worked on for pure and real interest, not for a grade. I still think the same.
ReplyDeleteNow, I did do that "acting" thing with other courses to get a good grade. But I no longer do, what is better, I don't give a shit about a fucking high grade, a 3.0 is just good for me. It's not a matter of mediocracy, I just prefer not to waste my time in a lot of useless contents but I use all that time in working by myself out of the classes, reading, writing, researching and much more. Things that really are, mean and contain something and go somewhere.
Academy, with some exceptions, is just a burden.
As a friend of mine said "Que continúe el circo".
That's one of the reflections this piece of writing wanted to emerge. It would be wonderful if we all consider our process as something really important, with a great impact in ourselves, much more if we are at university, apparently wise people looking for knowledge without any reward but the improvement by my own. In contrast, It's a shame that a grade most of the time plays an important role in your academic line, or maybe I'm wrong if I say that a lower grade for something that you did very well doesn’t mad you or a 2.9 in your final doesn't represent any feeling???.
ReplyDeletePeople have different ways of perceiving things, for some the real value is inside and what you do with them; ironically if we talk about self-taught and activities done by my own why they should be “qualified” lower than our perceptions or the hard work we carried out? There’s a problem with your way of doing things and the conceptions you have to make anything, they’re not synchronized…
What about if I don’t matter my success, get released and let things happen making myself a kind of sponge accepting anything outside wants to give me, well that’s a nonsense way of giving up because in other words we’re putting in risk our life-line - that’s the card on the table-.
Also, I’m not attacking our English course directly, obviously there are some things that I don’t share and by them I expose some keys, but the text is a general view of the idea around evaluating.
Keep analyzing guys, that’s a good exercise!